Watch as the world is stuffed down his throat.

Fortune Faded.

2009-07-05T03:44:00.003+08:00

Whatever it is that we're all going through right now,

Its not easy.

; And I pray to God, please let us get back to where we were.

Sowoneul Malhaebwa!

2009-06-29T17:57:00.004+08:00

So the SNSD craze hasnt' died down yet.
And it's getting better and better!
This is their latest single.
Watch and drool. (:

TAEYEON!! <3<3

That missing sense of relief.

2009-06-13T04:00:00.006+08:00

Something that could have been a good start to a weekend after 2 weeks of numbers and graphs and tables and points and evaluations and more graphs, became an absolute nothing.
I have to admit, I was looking forward to that friday night. I thought that I could at least let go of all this information and education for a while and just, let loose. And even my parents knew that I should, even in the midst of exams, they gave me the permission to go out. But I ended up getting more crap than I already have. Getting more shit than I should. Getting more stress when it was supposed to be the other way around.

Well, simply put, they think I don't deserve it.
I can find a million reasons to contradict that, but I chose not to. Because I do not want to disrupt the peace.
But you did it, my friend. And you did a good job at that too, I'll give you that.
I mean, did it have to come to that extent? Up to a point when I am not even told what's happening even when I ask? Up to a point when I can't even have a decent conversation with any of you? Especially to one which I talk to a lot to. Up to a point where a couple of friends and I have to lie to our other friends just to have a simple cup of teh o ais? And to think I got all this because of simple assumptions. Funny.
What is the world coming to when I can't even go out, even when my parents let me, because of limits set by my own mates? My own band of brothers? The very same people we hang out with and do everything together with. Why has it come down to this?

I get the fact that its all for the best of me and yadayadayada and all that typical shit.
But come on man, the reason why I can't accept this anymore is because its simply too much.
I don't deserve this shit, you think I'm a failure. On what basis? C'mon man I got good grades for my past exams la. I'm just not the type to show it. Unfortunately I don't have a super high CGPA to compare with you guys and I don't get on the dean's list to tell you guys about it. But that doesn't mean that I'm a failure. It's all simple assumptions and accusations. Backed by nothing but mere sayings by people with no evidence whatsoever. If you really wanted to know how I did then come and ask me myself. I'll gladly show my results to you. And I can prove to you that I am not a failure. B B A A is bad to you? nice. So not a failure. Never was, and never will be.

All I'm asking of you people is to just, trust me. Give me at least a little bit of credit. Believe that I can do this. Even with the whole freedom of seeing everyone as it always was, at least believe that I can and I know what's right for me and what I should do. And I certainly don't want ties or bonds to be broken or strained because of something so simple like this. I posted this here because I do not want anything bad to happen should we be talking about this in another situation, place or day.

I'm not asking for much.

Return to Innocence.

2009-06-09T00:34:00.005+08:00

I SUKA YESTERDAY OMG I SUKA YESTERDAY GILA GILA HEEEEEEE :D
Happiness, come back to me.
Thank you whoever who made my day :)
It was a nice catch-up :D

B B A A.

Perfect ___, gone wrong.

2009-06-03T02:22:00.004+08:00

"Maybe the happy ending is just..moving on."
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kawaaiiiiiiiii..err

2009-05-18T23:45:00.002+08:00

Y'all remember the 2 videos I posted of Girls Generation (SNSD) back then right?
So very amazingly cute.

Now watch this. (till the very end please)

And keep LMAO-ing. hahaha.

The Night is Darkest Just Before the Dawn.

2009-05-17T21:13:00.005+08:00

Things I want to get/do/make after my exams.

Like banyak gila. But I'll just list down the ones I really want la :D

So okay, I really want to get back to my gaming ways. But with this junk of a PSU. There's no way I could play a game without spamming the auto-save button in anticipation of an auto-shutdown at full load. So the first thing I want to get would be..

CoolerMaster Real Power 1250w.
So I can support my SLI/Crossfire needs.

Haha lets be realistic la. I probably wouldn't get that one, but I'd settle for something in the RM200 range.

And then comes the graphics card. Oh yes, I'd so want to get something able to play crysis at high smooth at least. And I wanna kalahkan my tak-nak-kalah best mate. haha.

Nvidia GTS250. Or something similar.
Fck you ATI! :)

I don't quite know when this would materialize, but I certainly hope it's soon enough.

After that, or between those two, I certainly want to do some fun, fun, activities.

..and a lot of other various shizz la. In short, I just want to have fun.

Oh and I'd also wanna travel with my family again :D

(pictures by faye)

So those are the things I'd want to do. Among many more. But before all that,

Fck.

Glory Glory.

2009-05-17T01:48:00.004+08:00

Here they are.
The 18th time.
The 11th under Sir Alex.
Another great one.
Lets make it a double now.

Glory Glory Man United.

It's the Chorus of the Breaking Dawn.

2009-05-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

Soon enough, June the 19th.
I don't want to be bound by these cages anymore.

kawaaiiiiiiiii

2009-05-08T01:38:00.005+08:00

You guys HAVE to watch this.
They're the epitome of cuteness and hottness.
They'd totally make you happy again after a bad day or something.
And now, just watch.

And another one, even better.

Lol.

Oh freedom, please find me.

2009-04-27T00:52:00.003+08:00

When will I get what I've always longed for?
When will they finally let me free?
When will I finally be able to live the life of a REAL 19 year-old.
Hah, I guess it won't be anytime soon. Fck.

Purify me, once again.

2009-04-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

The return of Baby Angelina, is all but imminent.
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EPIC PHAIL.

2009-04-10T01:06:00.003+08:00

hello today i going to fariz meeting up faye eddie acap etc etc. today follo hameer and malik coming. so fun is the nite. except i no have fun so much becos i not rich, not good looking with perfect live.. i smoking many because smoking is so addictively. shisha old man come, i dont liking him, i hated when people trying their hard to telling us thing we alredy hear. so fucking. and now im home and happily becos no uncle. tomorow i got colleagues so i sleep early tonite goodnight..

Saya Mahu Jadi Kaya.

2009-04-07T12:23:00.002+08:00

More than 20% of the 292 of the self-made American billionaires on the most recent list of the World's Billionaires have either never started or never completed college. This is especially true of those destined for careers as technology entrepreneurs: Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Michael Dell, Larry Ellison, and Theodore Waitt.
(Picked from an article on Yahoo.)

Now I just don't feel like completing college at all. Maybe invent some new technology? Be super rich and tell the whole world I did all that without college. Right Brain ftw!

Haha, how I wish that were possible.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.

2009-04-05T21:03:00.003+08:00

The thing is, you don't know.
I want you to know,
I want to tell you,
I want to be able to show it to you,
I want to prove things to you,
I certainly want to,
but..

..I just can't.

Happy 19th Birthday Faeez "Faye" Sabri!

2009-03-23T11:24:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to say about anything else at the moment.
But just straight to the point la,
Happy birthday to my great friend, my best mate, Faye!

May all of us have a great 19th year of our lives.
I got that photo off your blog, so basically that's your work. Credits to Faye! lol.

A million doors to eternity.

2009-03-08T02:54:00.004+08:00

I'd never imagined before,
that the world could be turned on it's head,
I'd never have thought to be here in this place,
I'd never have dreamt that in love I'd be lost and so easily led,
I guess I was caught by that hint of a smile on her face

I thought I was happy,
when my life was as easy as anything.
But that was the past of an ignorant youth.
I'm falling in love with a girl,
but I'm forced to be living a lie.
And she'd never love me if she knew the truth.

Is it asking too much,
if I pray for a miracle,
That one day she'll love me,
That one day she'll say, "I care."

A mast without a sail.

2009-02-23T18:01:00.002+08:00

Please la don't be so shallow. You think I'm the only one? Well news flash mafaga, I'm definitely not. OPEN YOUR EYES. And I definitely won't make up or change any god damned stories about you. Cocksucker.

You know ~~who~~ what you are.

Those who speak know nothing.

2009-02-07T02:54:00.001+08:00

Everybody's watching you now,
everybody waits for you now,
what happens next?

It's easy, we all falter.

2008-12-23T21:41:00.004+08:00

Dreams.
A dream can be defined as a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality.
And though where I want to go right now could be nothing more than a dream,
nothing more than a mere abstract of the innocent mind in all of us,
nothing more than a beautiful release from the painful reality that we all live in,
a dream could still come true, am i not right?
So I hope, god willing, for this dream to come true.
And only then can I say that all this while, it was a premonition rather than a dream,
and only then can I be content, with what I would have, with what I would get.

Maybe not now, perhaps maybe later? hah I certainly hope so.

As memory seeps through my veins.

2008-12-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

I can't think straight anymore. All I want is for this problem to go away. I already know what the problem is but with all the ignoring I'm getting, I don't get the room I need to explain myself. I don't know who to go to. And I don't know what i can and what i cannot do. I want to talk to them, I want to explain myself, I want to make them know that I'm willing to apoligize, that I'm willing to compromise, that I'm willing to give in, that I'm willing to sacrifice all of this to make things right. I certainly don't want anything to get in between our friendship. Please, hear me out, just this once.

I'm sorry.

The shadows closely run.

2008-12-11T00:56:00.005+08:00

Many great stories,
many great sagas,
great tales,
of fiction and of what actually happened,
of the living and the departed,
of what's obvious and what's not,
begin in the most innocent way possible,
but the end result often differs,
some end great,
some end badly,
some just don't end at all.

My story has begun,
and as innocent and as unsuspecting as it may be,

I just want it to have a ~~good~~great ending.

In the quiet time of evening, when the clouds gather and let loose.

2008-11-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

Things change,
people change.
But the things they change are always insignificant things.
They are the things that we really couldn't care less, and that we just couldn't bother if it was even there in the first place.
Sometimes the things that they change are the things that you never wanted change in.
But the things that really matter, the things that really would bother people, almost always, never change.
At often times, it gets worse.
But this is what life is.
This is what we get by, day by day.
And all we can do, is to just pray.
Hope is simply not enough anymore.

Well I just felt like letting that out. Thought about that the whole way back from college while driving in the rain. Aha, I always get thoughts like that while driving in that ambience.

Brazilian Grand Prix 2008, Formula 1 at its finest.

2008-11-03T03:18:00.005+08:00

69/71 VETTEL HAS OVERTAKEN HAMILTON!!!

69/71 Glock in fourth is on slicks though!!! But Hamilton needs to find a place....

71/71 FINAL LAP - HAMILTON NEEDS A PLACE - HE NEEDS A PLACE!!!

71/71 MASSA IS GOING TO WIN THE RACE - Hamilton is sixth!!

71/71 GLOCK HAS FADED - GLOCK HAS FADED

END HAMILTON HAS FINISHED FIFTH - HE HAS OVERTAKEN GLOCK - The Ferrari camp think they have won it but they are wrong - HAMILTON IS THE WORLD CHAMPION.

Such drama over just 2 laps of the race. Its good for the sport, no doubt. Fun to watch. But all I have to say about it is

FCK TOYOTA. FCK HAMILTON. FCK GLOCK. FCK MCLAREN MERCEDES.

Tomorrow's rain, will wash the stain away.

2008-10-29T00:14:00.003+08:00

There's this awkwardness that I feel, myself, alone, that the others don't feel.
There's that feeling when you know there's something wrong, but you can't comprehend what it is.
There's also that self-blame feeling thinking I'm responsible for things.
There's that cautious feeling thinking anything wrong I do or say could result in something bad happening.

There's also hope, and optimism, for it all to be normal again and for it to be left in the gallows of my deepest, darkest memories.

When the west wind moves.

2008-10-21T20:21:00.006+08:00

Najee just started blogging, and he's putting a lot of acceptable nonsense in it. Its funny though. Aha at least he's got something to keep him at home longer.

I don't think it's worth mentioning the fact that I haven't been blogging for a very very long time. I know I'm more than capable to, but heck, I just didn't bother. But now, I just thought that I could, maybe, just maybe put more effort into this now. ;p

It's funny how my last post became so infamous. But that resolution I made in it, was really fulfilled. Well, there are times when I just get down and down about stuff, but now the reasons are more acceptable. Hah. So it's safe to say, I probably only get emo about 20% of the time. Pretty normal no? aha.

Well, a lot of time passed us by since then. And a lot of things happened. Everything from life-threatening crashes to downfalls with the closest of friends happened. It has been a little more subtle lately, and I ~~guess~~ hope it would stay like this. I guess i can speak on behalf of everybody that we're all tired of fallouts and downfalls happening so much more than the average in our circle. Get it to stay like this, have a chillin good time. Enjoy it. Savour it.

Kembara's back. Gold colour, new bigger rims. Pictures should come soon (:

Raya has been great this year. I amassed a mini-fortune from it. I haven't quite spent it though. I have bigger plans with that money. Maybe make myself richer? aha, let's just hope it'll happen shall we.

Don't know what to type anymore. For now, I just want to wait and see if I can stay doing this. Not gonna spread the word out though. Not looking for publicity here, just a place to let out stuff. Hah. Till the next post!

Oh, to you, I'm smiling (:

;Here's to the nights we felt alive.

The Apology.

2007-01-21T04:11:00.000+08:00

I owe everyone an apology. I ask for everyone's pardon. I'm sorry. For being emo almost 80% of the time. I know its starting to irritate you guys. I know its no fun when I'm emo. And now I'll change for the better. Be less emo. At least. This is my NEW new year's resolution. Heh. Sorry yeah.

The Rundown.

2007-01-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

lol. Last post was sick i admit. But all for the humour, no? Anyway, here we go again.

As it is we're currently in pursuit of some idiot who did some abusive things. But details on that won't be mentioned here.

These past few days were fine. Ups and downs as usual. Most importantly. Now zaizai got enemy wooo. >.> Don't know how serious it will get la. But yeah, its the nature of living. The are enemies as there are friends. So live with it.

Its someone's birthday today. Jan 19th. Just that she hasnt been talking to me in a while. like 3 years. So I don't know if I should wish. >.>

I've been playing basketball again. Though i kinda pulled out of the school team this year, I'm still playing it. Just for the fun of it. I miss futsal. Someone plan one some time.

Ahh, during the school holidays i gained weight a little. Before the hols i was 74kgs. now i'm like 77kgs. Fyi, david's about 75kgs so no matter. I'm feeling great. ;p And i'm back on my low-carb diet. Minimal rice at night. No more sandwich snacks. Lunch at mamaks are just erm, naans and mees. Rice only at school. Atkins style. It really works. lol. To think this time last year i was like 90kgs or something.

The gay blue jacket would be on my racks for a while. Until someone asks me to wear it again. I really think it looks nice albeit looking a bit gay. lol.

Computer's outside my room now. There's a curfew to the comp usage. - - but weekends, I. don't. care. Comp's mine. :D

quote of the week. Rajiv sings, "sexual harrassment..pandas(8)"
lol. hear it for yourself. in the middle of add math class. it's stupidly funny. ;p

random pic.

I miss our old c3 days.

Nature is sexy. ;p

2007-01-16T20:08:00.000+08:00

mother nature's way to treat your senses.

lol. i personally like the 2nd and 3rd pictures. nyeks.

The Catch-Up.

2007-01-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

whaza. Everyone's just lazy to post so bite me. Be thankful I'm wasting precious homework (fckmyself) time to at least update.

Everyone really knows how to piss me off. I know its relatively easy to do that. But heck, jaga-jaga la sikit. I know y'all must be thinking "he's the emo one, we're just joking". I know I'm the one to blame for getting emo too fast. It's just my nature. But if you all dah tau I'm like that, jaga-jaga la. I try my best to not be emo and have fun. But when you all fckin bring up grandmas and granddads y'all expect me to just chill out? Metaphorically speaking. Once or twice is fine la. You get the catch by now.

Last week was our first week of real study. I made pepsi blue in the chem lab. Had to make an oath to my chem teacher. Had to again promise I'd do well. Get scolded and then complimented at and scolded again by my chem teacher. As you can see by now, my chem teacher rawks >.>

The weekend saw another guy's outing. i wore my infamous(by now) blue jacket. Which imo looks fine. better than what i usually wear but what the heck. watched Night at The Museum. good show. recommendations by moi. played pool after that. again i was unbeaten, just that once when i beat myself by fouling myself at the end to lose all. heck, winners fall sometimes no? ;p

Dad's getting discharged out of the hospital today. I'm obviously happy by this news. Everything's well and he'll be recuperating at home now. Let's all pray for the best.

And now i'm off. Gotta get to some friends for a game or 2 of snooker. After school stuff that is. Adios.

boo.

2007-01-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

Everything's getting back to the way it was. My dad's recuperating. School's up and runnin. Homeworks are bitches. Ming Jie's getting banged at almost 90% of the time. Chics are involved in life somewhere. I shaved my beard ;p. And we're back to dotA. lol. I'mma make sure i enjoy my last year in high school as much as possible :)

Till I've got something else to post about. See ya guys :)

Hey Ya cover. press play.

2007-01-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

Even if you didn't like the original version. Play this. IMHO, this is a whole lot better than the original version.

Firefox Ad.

2007-01-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

I'm a firefox junkie. And yeah, i'm promoting. Bite me.

The Summary.

2006-12-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

2006. A year many considered to be good. Especially them form fours. This year has been somewhat, the "honeymoon year". I'll say, its kinda true. At least the part where WE consider it as that. Not what our teachers, parents, tutors etc. think of it as. Let's face it, out of the 12 months we had 11 were spent lazing around. Well, that was our idea of the "honeymoon year". 2006 for me though, wasn't all that amazing.

The year started off rather fine. Coming off from PMR thinking we'd have the whole year to relax before we buckle up for SPM. At that point i socialised a lot. Making and getting calls almost every night and smsing almost every second i'm awake. Well that was then. As the first quarter of 2006 passed, I had done a lot of things worth my while. Then came the dreaded exams. I'm not going to ellaborate into that though. Let's just say it sucked. In fact every exam in 2006 sucked. It always ends up in me getting lectured scolded and so on. It's a typical form 4 boy thing i guess. Bad stuff had even happened during one of my exams. Resulted in me and a few others having our papers taken away and such. Exams suck, enough said.

Then came relationships. This year had 1 highlight. It was fine to say the least. Nothing special. We were off in a few months. But it was fun. To still know i have what it takes to pull something so great off. ;p I wasn't saddened much by the breakup. Maybe it was cause i knew the relationship wasn't really genuine. But who cares. I still pulled the stunt ;p Middle 2006 also saw me losing a friend.

Oh look, fireworks outside. Even Paandi's fired a few. 2007's gonna be so great huh? Anyway, back to what i was saying.

2006 final year holidays. It wasn't as fun as it should be. Filled with emo and sadness. It didn't have as many outings as we would have liked it to have. Many of us were working too, so even if there were outings it wasn't complete. Even the ones who did go, had financial issues and such. So yeah, no money = no fun. Enough said.

The holidays had a tragic end though. My father had stroke. He was stuck in the hospital for 9 days. I had to sleep over to look after him for a few of those nights. Now he's back home. But the after-effects are still there. Poor body balance, poor body coordination and etc. That sucked. I spent the last 2 weeks worrying over him. So that's how i ended my new year. The year had more stupid things that happened. But that doesn't need mentioning.

Anyhoo, here i am in the opening minutes of the year 2007 . I shouldn't look back. Life can only get better now.

Oh yeah, may everyone have a happy new year as well. :)